Valentine's Day: El Dia para Los Valientes

Valentine's Day is one of the worst days for me. In my whole life I have had only 2 Valentines...I swear. For whatever reason, I ain't never got a man to give me chocolates, a kiss and some good lovin' on the forsaken 2/14. Will this turn around? Will I have my chance at true committed love, to a relationship that will fulfill me for the rest of my days.

Over the two years I have learned much more about what love is and what it means to put it in practice. Love is not is not only a state of being but it is in constant state of motion, of action. There is constant communication, agreements, disagreements, consensus, negotiation. Love is tender and tough a la vez.

I have come to a point in my life where I no longer see love as something that happens to you then more of a choice. For dudes it seems to be something very different or so says the books, videos and all the other shit I look at. For men it is about chemistry, the spark. You know I think that is true when I was 16, there were sparks flying all over the place. Now at the age of 35 it is about a choice of how you want to live your life and how you will live it with this other person. Will this person make your life better, more enjoyable, purposeful. Will this person enhance your current state of being.

There are a handful of men that I have met over the year that would have been very strong potential life partners. But who knows they did things, I did things -it just wasn't meant to be. There is this one Italian guy that I never got to go on a date with who I think if we had who knows. My sister always mentions the same dude to me that she loves and adores. She is always telling me that I should just marry him. There is just something that stops me though. No se, I love him, always have a great time when we hang out but I just feel like there is something fundamental about the both of us together that just doesn't jive. Maybe it is the chemistry. That oh-so important ingredient that fuels the relationship forward.

My Valentine's day wish and prayer to the universe: who do I want in a my life partner: tall (above 5'8), intelligent, go-getter, loving, emotional, articulate, communicative, family-oriented, political, active in the community, appreciative of art and the finer things in life, about 10 years older than me or 3 years younger, ok is he has 1 child -preferably no chilren but wants to have children, accomplished in his own profession but still growing and evolving, loves to dance, mindful of money but not catano, always treat me like a lady but knows I am independent and strong-minded. Likes to spend time at home but will also participate with me in community events and other outings. Someone who will take me out of my usual element. Preferably latino and has a deep appreciation for his people.

Se lo pido a Dios, amen!